Not a Hero

It all started on the page
and my misgivings made you rage.
I guess I should have saved the day,
but I'm only human.

Now I'm just a satellite 
orbiting the debris of gods.
I look up to the Heavens
and pray I see a spaceship 
so I know I'm not alone.

Drama queens and suicide kings
showed me how to carry on
with slight of hand
and a little smoke,
something's sure to finally go wrong.

And it's something unintentional 
but it matters all the same,
Under a thick fog of medicine
I accidentally caused you pain.
I hope you know I was grasping.
I love you with all my might,
I'm not a hero or a martyr
but with you I'd share the night.