The ramblings and photography of a genderfluid maniac and poet. Photography and poetry by Amanda Barnabe. 2004-
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Praying
I bend myself into the shape
of your hands
As they pray, in their way
for release and rapture.
Your ghost, tapping on the window pane
Tapping into my lucid thoughts,
Dissolving their foundations
To nothing but a few grains of sand
on a landscape
under the flashing sky
I have surrendered to.
Curls and origins across your palms
leaves me a sailor in their grip
Navigating every crease and crevice,
Searching for a new world.
I sleep and live inside you
To the sounds of beating wings
and holy singing.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Bonnie and Clyde
Be my Bonnie
I’ll be your Clyde
An unstoppable force
Be each other’s side.
We’ll carve out a spot
In glitter and gold
And by the tides current
I will love you bold.
I ask you to show me
all your secrets,
You say you have no secrets
from me;
So I ask you to show me
everything else.
Like Bonnie and Clyde
of another time and place
We are partners of art and crime
Laying waste to anything
that falls into our path.
Burning rubber
and signing love letters
with tattoo ink and bullets.
My gorgeous beau
My natural born killer;
let’s overthrow the crowd
and give them something to talk about.
We are the outlaws
and we are the dreamers,
my love.
Friday, September 25, 2009
Brazen Blue
all i want to do
is hold on to you
deep in the nights
of different muse.
spike my blood with brazen eagerness
and lead me to your pastures.
we ride sky
and we get by
in these love and war disasters.
dance until the night's exhausted,
oh let me lick
your blessed skin.
and then with just one baited breath
we begin our love again.
kiss me
kiss me
over and over,
burn me with your eyes.
we walk on
saving each other
with passion, wine and lullabies.
Highway
I am realizing that my writing
is a lot like my mind.
There's more of it
than I thought there was.
It's not organized by structure
so much as it is by pattern...
I think.
I have no idea
how to make sense of it all
let alone how to arrange it
into any sort of sense
for anyone else.
And the poet in me
of course says
"screw everyone else"
but what's the point
in being able to speak
if we have to keep secrets?
So here's this huge mass of words
and images,
greater than the sum of its parts
but nothing more
than highway confessions of a madman.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Monday, September 21, 2009
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Complex
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Hours
may the hours between us
reflect an unending of possibilities
that remain like scripture
forever ahead of us.
let the pages speak
the language of two people
who truly love each other.
let me fly to you
on paper wings,
hold me darling
the road is rising.
my soul recognizes it's counterpart
from centuries away.
my love,
i stumble blissfully
adding momentum
to our private dancing.
concentrate on me
and feeling me rising
to sultry six a.m. showers
and the sounds of sirens
rattling my steam soaked windows.
be with me,
while i run my fingers
over the ink and canyons
of your sanctified sonnets.
and i’m not crazy
you know,
just whole heartedly drinking
knelt before your suppleness
unashamed and unabating
in the place
where time matters not.
Friday, September 11, 2009
Staining
I’m clinging addicted
to the threads of our laughter
sinking into the woe of reality
and staining it shameless
with love.
These words are like
abandoned children crying
breaking in through the windows
and leaking oceans across the page;
I drip candle wax and scripture
into the ointment of latter days.
Wrap me awake inside this fever
and then show me
all your canonized secrets,
this is a story of wicked roses.
You are the tipping back
of soused resolve,
you’re mona lisa smile.
With your fingers
start a colloquy on my cheek
as I beg you to look past
the bandages and cigarettes.
Monday, September 7, 2009
Haunted
I’ve been screaming out my weighted words
into this endless waving crowd
just searching and searching
for your face
and singing your songs out loud.
Sacramental rites and spirits
crawling deeper inside my veins
don’t touch me with your music
and expect me to ever be the same.
Telltale prose and positioning,
my words like a freight train
tearing through
it’s the morning of the night again
and all I need is you.
I abandon all my devils now
in the divulgence of your grace
never will I be the same
but always haunted by your face.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Boulevard
i’ve missed you from here
for so many years
with a love that won’t fall silent.
it keeps moving around
behind my eyes
like masked faces
obedient to midnight curfew;
she shakes me to the bone.
i turn to the cool side of the pillow
bury deep my reeling head
fight back the memories
as the bottom drops
certainly far from lonely
but nothing ever stops.
under the influence out of my mind
spinning
and grinning
through the madness this time.
i thought i’d be satisfied
writing from your white fences
but then in one word
you can dissolve my defenses;
love falls down where ever it wants
as i go crawling down
the boulevard.
“and these things i just want to tell you still” -C. Pureka